Beautiful Disaster

first tuition pay

My 8th day of giving tuition and i got my very first pay. so happy. went home early today and waited for my mum back to accompany her to city plaza to shop for her clothes.she`s another choosy. most of the clothes i chose for her she didn`t like it. but she bought a skirt and 2 tops which is quite nice for her age ;x bought spring chickens as our dinner. the chicken is so fat & oily. fei si wo ahh! ;x read his blog which made the inner mich think alot. the inner mich hope she could be by his side and take care of him and lend him a helping hand. but the outer mich keep saying to herself that things are impossible. praying hard that everything will be fine for him. mou mou de wei ta shou hou zhe.

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shopaholic

he stood infront of me. just a normal thin, tan, tall guy with a red polo tee and a pair jeans. his eyes are small yet watery. a lil smile grew on his face each time he sees his hp. we alight at the same stop, woodland, but i couldn`t catch up with him as he seems to be in a hurry. walked around causeway point as usual as it was still early. went to meet yanhua at orchard after the tuition. she alighted at the wrong stop so we met up outside ngee an city and went for a walk at kinokoniya to look for books about understanding men and women. too many choice that made me can`t make up my decision. went to wisma and meet up meimei. walked around before heading to far east plaza. that`s the place where my shopping starts. nothing much attracts me. maybe it`s because i`m too choosy. saw alot of familia faces like liping and her girlies. stayed there for hours before heading to heeren and by the time we reached there, most of the shops doesn`t welcome us. head to cinelesiure and had our dinner at pasta mania before we took a bus home. bought 3 tops, a pair of ear rings, a lip gloose & a boxer for shank.

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wo mei you pian siting ;x

toured around spore post with siting while waitin for xinyi and sandy to come for teens search audition. round 3 times in ntuc, one round this fashion and stay at popular for quite sometimes to browse at books. no where for us to go except for the food court. set there and have a chat and i saw peiyu and her gurlies. xinyi came and we went up to take a look at the audition. everybody is wearing so fancy so we gave up on it as we know the chances of us being choosen is very minor. took a bus to angmokio to meet jolin and went to walk around and settle our lunch at kfc. went to play pool and guess what, there is a guy who look lyk JL from far. can`t get my eyes off him ;x anyway, siting ! wo mei you pian ni. wo hen guai de ~ hands up *

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drunk

it`s been a few days since i lock myself at home. went to visit the outside world with xinyi and sandy at toapayo. we met outside baleno and we get to see the chuan shou zong de xiaohei. he`s simply so cute and handsome. and guess what, my face was red when i saw him said by xin. gosh! head to parkway. it`s been a long time since we last hang out at there. went to mph to browse at books about relationship and sex ? LOLz ~ cause those books are just behind us so we sun pian take and read ;x settle our dinner at pasta mania and went to walk around before taking a bus ride to circuit road. met xin`s parents at the hawker and i actually set down and drunk beer with his dad. drunk till my head is damn pain when i got home and i actually cried for long hours ;(

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crying heart

it`s just me. crying every night and fall asleep. thinking of you, flashing the memories, missing your voice. hope everything will be fine for ya. btw, i drew this picture on my own. i can`t take back the love that i gave to you. broke it, thorn it, hate it, do anything to it then.

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thinking of him

have been repeating this song since last night, even till now. tears just rolled down, being alone thinking of you. every single words describe who am i now. ai de tong le, tong de ku le. ku de lei le ri ji ben li yue yue zhi zhuo.

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missing him

you are all that i want, but you broke it all. i know nothing can brought us back. your feelings towards me faded but my feelings towards you will never change. call me crazy, call me blind. love has blinded me. you asked me to let go. i`m trying to. never expect a patch. just want to keep you in my heart silently. the memories, the you. mou mou de wei ni shou hou...

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thanks ming

as usual, gave tuition. went to admiratly to explore and the place really sucks. so many stalls buy it didn`t sell the chocolate i want. went to meet ming and hang around his house whole evening. he took me to different playground but non of them got swings. stood outside jolin`s friend`s house with ming talking and crapping till they came out. jolin`s friend`s brother kept shoutin asking me to go in. it seems like i`m a kid attractor xD went to a playground and seat there playing tic tact toe and drawing and crapping. thanks ming for cheering me up. really thanks alot. and as to yan, i don`t mean to make you sad, worry and down. i know you`re trying so hard to make me laught that day, but i just fucking cry and give a sour face. i let you down. i let all of you down. i`m sorry...

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hurt deeply

my weekend work - giving tuition. went to walk around causeway point before heading to aljunied mcdonal to meet xinyi and the gurlies. had been keep quiet through out the whole conversation. went to bugis to shop with my mum. broke down after reading his blog. he actually found a new target. heart broke ; tears flow ; blood shed -

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crying unlessly

met sandy at paya lebar and went to bugis for a shop while waiting for yanhua, liping and elena. yan and i walked around bugis street and went to kfc to watch yan eat. while the rest went to orchard to meet elina. head to sim lim to meet jolin and siting and walk around finding the two girls that i know during the nanyang poly open house. was crying in the bus while heading to cinelesiure to meet the rest. can`t control my emotions. cry like there is no tomolo. sandy and yan shouted at me. asking me to stop my nonsense. saying that he don`t worth my love and whatever. since i`m a mood sweeper, i left them and went to angmokio to meet jolin and siting to play pool. have a good chat with jolin before heading home. have been thinking of you whole day. my tears just can`t stop flowing down. baby i miss you so -

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ended -

everything ended. you promise to walk with me through darkness and now you left me walking alone. the parth is so cold and lonely without you. you`re all that i wanted, all that i miss. i can`t stop crying, stop thinking, stop missing. i really don`t bare to part with you. but i suppose that`s the choice you want. no matter what, i`ll be here. cause all i want is you

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loving you is all i wan

tell me the truth; tell me that you don`t love me; tell me that you don`t need me; tell me that you don`t want me; tell me that you will be happy and i shall leave. but no matter what, i hope to be by your side. being the one that is by your side when you`re happy or down. giving you a helping hand and seeing you smile. juz want to be a lil girl in your heart. i never expect you to forget her but do you think it`s right to think of other girl when you have a gf ? how much do i mean to you actually ? can i know ?

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poly open house

woke up early in the morning and went to toapayo to return my work uniform . went to nanyang poly to meet jolin and she brought me around her school with her friends and her friend`s junior . went to look at cca performance and the courses they have . went to tour 3/4 of their school and went to ngee an poly after that . went to walk around and look at cca and courses . met siting and nua at the library before heading having our dinner in the school . head to bugis to meet xinyi and sandy and went home .

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my pool sucks

no work = nua at home . talked on the phone with shank in the afternoon and went out to meet jolin and siting at angmokio . went to eat mcdonal and went to play pool . my pool skill droped damn lot . dun know how long never touch le . remember last time we used to go parkway to play pool with weihao, elain and aikming . moreover it`s during final year exam period and elaine is having her 0s . i was singing all the time while jolin is occupying the pool table . i sang oldies . and keep running out of tune . being a mad women and make a fool of myself all the way . i want to improve on my pool . before we went home, we went to buy bubble tea and i took jolin`s key inreturn for her to take her money back . but she disappear while buying bubble tea and went home . think she`s angry with us ;(~

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hais ;(

today is my last day of work . quited actually before they fire me . sheler keep repeated the same thing again saying that if i still don`t know how to pull customer she will have to fire me . since the ppl from novena not satisfied with how i pull the customer and like to complain alot then what more can i do . haiss ~ went to nua around at singapore post and head to sandy`s house to take xi jie shao nian vcd from her and head back home . tears just filled my eyes while walking home . everything seems so cold ...

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sadness to the fullest

went to walk around causeway point before and after giving tuition . head back home to meet my mum and went to parkway to have a walk . it`s been a long time since i went out with my mum during weekends . nothing much for us to buy at parkway except for breads . xD~ read your blog yesterday . found out that you still lyk your ex ba . i`m not that someone . i`m not !! unbreak my heart / undo my hurts / erase my pain ;'(

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shop shop

my third day of giving tuition . jeremy was abit rebellious today . ended my tuition and went to causeway point to have a walk before heading to angmokio to meet jolin and siting . met them in the train and went to plaza sing to have a walk and settle our dinner at kfc . walked around and went to the arcade to play bball . head to juction eight to meet my marmii and went for a shop . bout a skirt and nike socks . actually bought some staff at watson but i lost the whole plastic bag . see how clumsy i am to lost a big bag . zzzz !

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stop shouting

Woke up early in the morning to work . every working life at lee wah is a battel to us . we have ti fight for customer to support us rather den buying things from pink beauty ( a new stall opened by ex lee wah staff ) have to shout and give out flyers to attract customers . staff from the other shop even tried to come into our stall and peep at our price . battel are getting more and more tough . went to bugis after work to walk around and while sandy went to order her 5566 album . went to the outlet that stella and mindy worked and pay them a visit . saw hazel and her stead at bugis t0o . went to eat kfc befor we head home . so tiredddddd !

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hubby angry

at least we get to give less flyer today and learn new staff like promoting their in house product . and from today onwards to get to work from 10am to 5pm and off during weekends . weeee ~ went to meet hubby and pei at tampinese . was kinda late cause the bus journey was long . went to best denki to look for ahah to delivery nuggets but end up both of them ate all and left nothing for him . l0l`z ~ hubby was kinda pissed off with his mum and so we went home early

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bad mood

as usual work . sick and tired of it . have to stand whole day and smile whole day . machem we selling smile like this . damn fucking bad mood today . early in the morning got complain saying that we don`t listen to them wat ever shit then when i go home xinyi told me what the lady say i don`t smile and don`t know how to pull customer all kinds shit . fuck it # happy birthday JL -

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i rox *

as usual, work work work ; stand stand stand ; promote promote promote and give out flyer whole day . but one thing special is i get to buy dinner and lunch for them . can waste my time and nua before going back to hell . went to meet jianwen after work and head to tampinese to look for serena`s ( his dear ) present . get to steal some lavender from a flower shop and it`s closed and the flowers are outside . saw my hubbyy today . weee ~

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tired ya know ?

as usual went to work and came home feeling sleepy . saw denise . i miss my classmates ! wonder how are they ? still surving ? =x anyone willing to help me massage and sing me a lala bye so that i can fall asleep soundly ? working is tiring ; but n0t working is boring . two more days to his birthday, wondering should i buy him a present, even if i buy, i could hardly see him as he`s working . unless during weekends went to go to woodlands to give tution then i meet him at his place SEMBAWANG ~ xP omg ! he called me at 11.o2pm and we talked on the phone for 8.o2 minutes . he`s working as an agent pulling ppl to join his company`s course to be a singer / actor / model . and he asked me for ppl to intro . weee ~ so happy . it`s been a damn long time since we last talk on the phone . and it seems like he only call me once in a blue moon

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jappy restaurant

went gave tution in the afternoon and head to yishun to cut my hair . suppose to work today but by the time i reach there i juz have to work for 3 hours, so i rather don`t work . my hair is damn short and ugly . i kinda miss my old hair style . the one that i first cutted my hair short . head to toapayo to meet xinyi then took a bus to bugis to meet shuyi . went to her old work place to eat ( masakatsu resturant ) the whole table is full of food . shu yi frend juz gave us plates and bowls of it . and they only charge us the amount we order . if plus those extra de, i think got 80 plus n0r. xinyi was being lame in the bus . keep making us laugh through out the whole journey and the whole bus is full of our noise . bleahz ~ i rox ; aN, jolin SUCK -

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lost in woodland

Woke up early today due to some sleepless germs in me . went to prepare myself and head out to angmokio and changed a mrt to woodland to meet jiahui to bring me to the primary 2 boy`s house . lucky she was there to be my tour guide, if not i`m sure to get lost at woodland . walked from one end to another and we found the boy`s house . taught him all three subjects today using his textbook . actually nothing much to teach . he`s quite a playful and talkative boy . clever too . went back to woodland and bought a mrt to toapayo to work . head home at around 10.30pm and here i am back home nua-ing . i need a massagee !

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jolin suck . i rox

Woke up early today to catch a earlier bus . met stella at the interchange and head to work . stella was sent to bugis to work while as usual we contiune to give out flyers whole day . kinda bored and tired . have to stand whole day, smile whole day and shout whole day . jolin and siting came to pay me a visit and we went to eat dinner together after we ended work . went to walk around while waiting for sandy and head home . receive an assignment tomolo at woodland giving a primary 2 boy tution for the three subjects . so far ! it`s been one week one day since i last saw my hubby . missing him l0tss ~ ;(

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first day of work

First day of work and we`re late by 10 minutes . That kuku bus number 155 made me waited very long . from tomolo onwards i have to wake up damn early juz to catch a earlier bus . zzz ! Gave out flyer whole day and stand whole day . my legs are tired and my cheeks are tired too cox i have to smile through out the whole working period . it seems like i`m selling my smile like that =x The ppl there are very friendly and helpful . we get to have free lunch and dinner everyday . and sweets to eat . bleahz * i miss my hubbyyy ! hope to meet him soon ;(

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found a job

Went to the create talent company in the afternoon and she actually interview me and asked me to pay a sum of 253 bucks to make a port folio of my own so that they can show their client . i was lik wtf . i have to pay juz to take a set of photo and i can`t be sure if any client want me . i`m not photogenic nor a matured lady that those advertisment want norr . head to toa payo to look for jobs and we found a job at a cosmetic shop . starting work tomolo . wish me luck baby ! hope this job could last . receive a sms saying that they have found me a assignment for tution . will give me more details later . went to meet jianwen and head to bugis to shop for his clothes . had dinner with serena and her mum but seat different tables as the table is small . went to walk around before heading home . sometimes i really wonder if he understands me . there are so many things i want to say, your touch is out of reach ; your smile seems cold . everything seems like a date to me, but my love for you is true, hope you feel it too ...

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bball

Went to meet sandy and head to tampinese to walk and shop for xinyi`s birthday present . went to hubby`s work place but couldn`t find him cox he`s off today and he didn`t tell mi . he actually slept whole day today instead of askin mi out . it`s been a long time since we last went out ya know ? ;( head back to school and bio bball orientation . i`m wearing my school uniform and i`m back in school carrying a bag . ppl around me must be wondering why this siao char bor in her school uniform; i thought she graduate le ? LOLz ~ settle my dinner with xinyi and her mum at hawker and we were planning to go to genting during chinese new year . hope that i could work and get more money so that i can enjoy my life there xD~

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i miss school

Went back to school with xinyi and sandy . seriously, i miss school ! i miss the time we get serious, the time we rot and the time we create lots of noise . i miss wearing school uniform too ! saw alot of familia faces and start updating ourself with news in school . wanted to find a relieve place in school but they need a 0s cert at least . head to bugis and went to the temple to pray for a new year start and head to bugis juction to have a walk . saw midy and stella and get updates about themselves about their recent life . saw xijun (mao`s ex) while heading to bugis street . i stare at her while she stare at me and even look back when she`s heading to bugis juction . hmm~ look much prettier then in picx . really one babe ! head back home after staying whole afternoon at orchard . miss my hubby lots -

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lurvee

Everything seems so cold . we seems to be drifting apart . the gap is not closing . instead it`s getting wider and wider . sometimes i really wonder if you really love me . i just want to be a normal girl . being love and care by the one she love . but i don`t feel any security in you . or is my heart too numb to feel anything ? although nobody is perfect but i want to be the girl who really make you smile . but from your blog i don`t seems to be the one . maybe i`m not that special someone . maybe i`m just a girl who come into your life to leave some footprints . tell me how can i be a good gf ? # happy birthday marmii -

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merry new year

Home sweet home . went out to welcome 2oo5 and sent the past away . meet xinyi and elina at orchard mrt station and head to taka to walk walk before shuyi and her stead joined us . went to look for jianwen and he actually need to wear those formal for work . looks more shuai =x went to eat at suntec while waitin for colin / jian / serena . after they came, we head to millium to look for sandy as she` stuck at her work place as the door is spoiled . actually wanted to go esplanade to countdown, but we got not enough time to reach there for the countdown moreover we thought that suntec got some countdown program when there is nothing . we have to follow our own time and countdown ourself . nobody shout or scream when it reaches 12 except for our group . our group brought up the attention of the ppl that made them all shout and cheers . thought can meet hubby but by the time he called i`m already at elina`s house . went her house to nua \ eat \ play majong \ sleep ! went for breakfast in the morning and head to shuyi`s house to nua and watch tv while waitin for xin . went to shuyi`s granny house to eat as her granny cooked our share . head back to shuyi`s house to nua . actually wanted to play majong de but we`re lack of some titles . watched tv \ played two player daidee and play with shuyi`s dog ( nono ) he`s one active dog that pull me around when i take him for a walk and peee ~

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